I’m a sophomore in college and never had an actual boyfriend. Alot of guys ask me out, but I wanted to REALLY like someone if I were in a relationship with them. So when I was a freshman, everyone around me was hooking up with people. I felt pressured and hooked up with four guys over the course of one school year. It’s not a lot for some people, but it’s alot to me. I lost my virginity to a hookup too. & One of the guys I hooked up with treat me like S***, he made me swallow when I gave him head and said really degrading things to me. Anyway I haven’t hooked up with anyone since. But I feel like s*** about it still. I realized that most people lost their virginities to their boyfriends/girlfriends and I wish I had waited. This regret is killing me and I hate myself. If my mom knew she’d be so disappointed..
