Eh f*** it.It’s not worth the energy . I probably deserved it anyway . I hope you’re ok . I tried my best to be strong and not lean on you for emotional support which was a reason you gave for leaving last time . It took six months, and a really awesome psychologist and a lot of other supports just to get to the point where I could hold it in and not dump my s*** on people . Then the therapist left and i was basically given my mother . It was horrible . She took away all my other support , including even the psychiatrist , as she center director . ripped me to shreds during every session and made a point of never being a available . I think I just fell apart after a month under this “new normal “ . I was proud that I had some sense of stability, that I was able to be a support to you for a while. I still don’t know what I’m going to do I don’t know if I can take the beating from this program it just seems to be making me worse and there’s no way to even switch therapists she is the head of everything. It’s pretty awful. I really do care about you though. I just didn’t want to reach out if I was going to be emotional or needy. I hope you’re OK. I love you