naps and getting on top of people…
as a child I would have a nap in the afternoon with my great uncle and cuddle up and put a leg over (which sounds dirty) to sleep and sometimes lay on top of him, I did this with my father as well and other kids older or younger, I feel dirty about it now but at time it was just a comfort thing to sleep as little children often cuddle up to someone… I would sometimes get on top and rub like a simulated s** with clothes on or he would touch me. I don’t know what made me get on top …it sort of sounds dirty and dominant but it was not really like that. he would ask me to do things and I just took it to be normal or a game others did to me that I copied.
I would also do this cuddled up to him sitting on him and sometimes there was touching and rubbing involved.
my cat does much the same thing he comes up to me and cuddles on top of me wanting smooches and nuzzles into me, or does some happy feet til he is done …
it is hard to explain and I do feel dirty about it as if I took part or played a dominant role in the s***** abuse, but it was often what he wanted or it was just convenient to get on top and cuddle up for smooches that were s******* involved …
