I’ve dated men and women in the past. I’m married to a woman. However, I often think about a man I dated in the past while m***********, and sometimes indulged the thought that I might have some kind of s***** experience with him again. Perhaps with my wife, perhaps not.
Anyway. After a long time of not seeing him or talking to him, we were both added to a group chat with many of our old friends, all of us catching up. I added him on Facebook, and I knew I shouldn’t have looked at his page, but I did and saw that he is engaged. I didn’t expect that to make me sad, but it did. Selfish I guess. In reality, I’m glad he is happy and having a good life. However, I’ll probably need to find a new subject to think about while I m********* because I’ll probably end up thinking about how he’s engaged and how tiny the likelihood is that at any point in the future both of our spouses would be okay with us hooking up.
Of course it’s selfish, but it’s sad that I’ve lost that fantasy.