The karma I posted on that tik tok is the karma of u losing someone who did the most for u. The karma of having to realize what u did is wrong and hurting for it bc that’s how u fix mf mistakes. That’s not wishing bad on u. Second off, u only wanna point out bad comments I put under posts but u never see the good ones. Also I posted that tik tok bc I felt like it hit the mf target right on the d** bc u can’t decide to start something new w someone else and come to me after it failed. I’m not a second choice. And like I said the voicemail I sent a while back is tru. I did not want u contacting me. But the past few days I thought abt contacting YOU to see if I can fix things and have a better outcome than j not being in each other’s lives like this. But yes u r bashing me as if I never tried to see the good in u. U said “if ur here or not ima do this for me and my self love and you should realize it” or whatever it is. I literally spoke to Tas justifying ur actions. I told her things u tried to tell me. I told her that u only cheated in the first month and that u progressed, I told her all the things u write me in the summer and the times we had, I told her u went to a girl bc of me saying we friends. I told my friends everything I’m not the f****** type to say my side only. Bc u don’t know how bad I wanna see the good in this as much as u do. I’m literally j tryna have approval from her bc she’s my logical thinking for me. I can’t think w my feelings so she does it for me and I’m trying hard to get her to finally say it’s okay so that I can trust at least her to go for it. U don’t know how mf bad I try to see the good and talk good abt u. You literally DONT KNOW at mf all. To everyone I try to make u look good. Obviously saying “she cheated” and then explaining the good isn’t easy bc nobody believes there’s good after cheating unless u a cheater urself. I j hate the fact u rlly have the feeling that I am j here not recognizing ur efforts. I am. I j can’t do anything more but try to forget them and go on bc there’s so much more to this than j u cheating and all that. I also don’t wanna add u on anything to talk right now yet. I j wanted to address the post bc I been trying to move on but the only thing I can think of is if u having it easier than me bc it’s hard asf for me to do this. So like a dumbass I came on here j to find out U saying things like this. But it’s fine j know that u can’t assume sht. That’s all