i cant sleep at night i wake up all the time and just cry because sleeping was my only way of having time without my thoughts. i’m struggling i don’t know what to do about things i’m scared because i know exactly what i’m gonna say to you i just don’t want to be told no i don’t wanna be told i’m not worth it when i think you’re worth everything and i’m doing everything to just prove that even when you don’t want me in your life at all. you mean so much to me everything that’s happened and everyday you mean more. we broke up in february but things happened in march. it is now one day before september. you would’ve thought all of that fighting. two months of you yelling at me, months being unsure and on and off, and blocked that i’d be tired by now. that i’d let go and say there’s no point this isn’t going anywhere. i wouldn’t wait this long to stop fighting for you. and i wouldn’t let this ruin everything we had. i wouldn’t give up on you i wouldn’t get tired and bore of us because each time i knew in the end it would be worth it. i don’t think it’s easy to come back listening to someone’s words with their actions not being able to prove it and that’s what this time without you has been. that’s what all these months have been. my actions and not just my words. i’ve been thinking of letting this out all night i just had to. i’m just here to stay even when you think you’ve pushed me the farthest away. i hope you’ll think it’s okay when i text you VERy soon. i miss you, please miss me too. please for a few minutes undersyand me like i undersyand you. i just want to be heard for once by you. not shut out. and i don’t think you even realize when you do it