my dads a homophobe and my mums a major gossip girl ,, what can i do ,, i have fallen out with half my family been left to live with my nan i have been beaten up by a 31 year old and i am only thirteen ,, my first girlfriend used me because i am the daughter of a criminal and she thinks that me being on her rep makes her ‘ s c a r y ‘ but no i can never ever keep my room clean for mare than a week and even though i am just below average weight for my age group i still am extremely conscious about my weight. i have two personalities the one everyone sees and the one that me and one other person on this planet sees i have a style i wanna wear but i cant wear it around my family or school friends or out of school friends (not that i have any) the one girl i ever loved in a not friend or family way broke me started fixing me then broke me into a million pieces all she did was ask fo nudes and wanna kiss but as soon as we broke up she told everyone i was being thirsty ,, me being the girl who pretends she doesn’t care but everything just cuts deep ,, exposed her a** and cause more drama and to top it all off i lost the one person (James) who i could talk to over something he said in an argument with my ex best friend (Matthew) and apparently it was all my fault. I am my families ‘pride and joy’ but only my personality they see the ,, thirteen year old smart school b average grade except for p.e and dt in which she gets an A* she goes for jogs and plays football and cooks and is always playing with the kids and dancing in the rain ,, but they dont know the ,, ripped jeans, black boots and chains, skateboarding, video games, monster drinking, crying in a tree, junk food eating side of me you know

so yeh basically i am slowly dying inside
if not already dead i mean

signed: A LONLEY MEDWAY GURL :)(: