I just want to kill myself, My mum calls me words like “slag” “w****” “hoe” it hurts my feelings .I am 12 years old and I struggle to make friends at school, I have 2 friends, a rumour went around my year group telling people I was racist, my mental heath is messed up.I have to hide sticks and brooms in my room so my mom wouldn’t use them to beat me, I isolate myself in my room all day because of my mom, I dont want to talk to her, she’s obsessed with my dad (she’s divorced) she’s always asking about him and when I ask why, she threatens to kick me out, she’s done it before but my 2 year old sister opened the door for me, I have to look after her most of the time since my mum is so “busy” on her phone. I get compared to people who are 26 and have Degrees and stuff, my other cousin is also 12 and my mum is always on about how she can cook and cleans up every day, I also clean, but I cant cook.When ever I ask my mum “I want to learn how to cook” she says no and wonders why I cant cook. she calls herself a “slave” because she washes a few dishes and goes to work.i hate it here, I really do hate it, my mom told me that having kids was the worst choice she ever made. Guess ill just kill myself