I have a horrible addiction to inappropriate material. And I don’t know what to do about it. It started wit a friend who was bad for me. They’d skew me in this direction. My body being deprived of such a thing, made my mind skewed in this general direction. I hated it to be honest. He made me crave him pretty much, we never got to meet, during that particular time as he would stall. Then he went for another woman. The problem is I was let not only s******* depraved but in absolute despair. My addiction was a thing from the past but it came back ten fold. I try to watch animated material because at least in animations the people may not be real, as in the maximum that’s being done with real people is that real people are voicing or drawing the animations. But there is no actual person going through a traumatizing experience. It’s my way of at least attempting to lessen the consequences. But the effect is the same, I am hopelessly addicted, and hopelessly craving for something I can’t have.