the only reason i wont classify this as “a pain” is because you made me the happiest i have every been and that’s all i think about when i think about you. when i think of you, i think of the times you would stay on facetime with me until 3am waiting for one of us to fall asleep. i sit here and think “why didn’t i keep you?”. and that question is one i will never have an answer for. you’re perfect in every way. more perfect than any human i have ever met. the fact that you kept me from taking my own life is absolutely crazy. i could barely keep myself from taking my own life. you were always there. making sure i was okay. making sure i ate. drank. and all i did was be insecure and needing of constant reassurance. i wish i didn’t make you reassure me all the time. having me ask you if you still loved me must have been such a pain in the a** for you. i must have been so annoying. but nonetheless, i still loved you with all my heart. even though i may have doubted your love for me at certain times due to my past, you were always there to tell me that you’d always be there for me. i love you. so much. and i will ALWAYS have such a special spot in my heart for you. if you ever need me, i’m a call away. i’m right down the road. and if you can’t get a hold of me, you know where i’ll be. just come find me.
