I fantasize of oral s** because my boyfriend is disgusted by my v*****. I always gave him without him even asking for it but only received a handful of times, now I’m too resentful to even have s**. When I’m m*********** I dream of my ex, how he loved my taste, he wasn’t even that skilled but he adored my p**** and thinking about it drives me insane. I sometimes feel guilty that I fantasize about cheating and receiving oral from someome else, but I feel like I deserve much more than half-assed head from a guy I give 100% of my adoration to. I don’t even wanna see him anymore because he makes me sick, I felt disgusting because of him for too long, now I just dream of leaving and finding a man who will love to eat my p****.