I DID WANT A CAREER IN SOMETHING … I really enjoyed learning newsreading at the tv station and the film comerical course we did. I was nervous about being there and doing the newsreading, but I wanted to do it … I am not really good at anything really, but to be honest I do not care anymore. I do not care about what my failures or successes are anymore, all I CARE ABOUT RIGHT NOW IS MY V***** HEALTH AND BABIES BEFORE ITS TOO LATE TO HAVE THEM AT ALL. I DO CRY THINKING ABOUT THAT MY PARENT WILL NEVER SEE MY CHILDREN I WILL NEVER HAVE THEM BECAUSE OF EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED. BEFORE LONG I AM GOING TO FIND A MAN KILL HIM AND F*** HIM TO GET PREGNANT I SWEAR I WISH I COULD.