I keep hearing it screaming in my head
I can’t eat
I don’t deserve the single grain of rice I made myself
And so I threw out the whole bowl
I keep going back to the voice saying I don’t deserve it. It’s worse than it’s ever been. I should be over this. I’m older. But there is no age limit on this sort of thing.
I want to drink myself into a coma
I just want to stop feeling guilty for eating.