I had a mental breakdown during my first year of university and isolated myself from all my friends. I tried confronting and fixing my problems so that it wouldn’t haunt me, but I never have before, and in doing so I made myself into a crazy person in the eyes of all my friends. I tried to fix it all by trying to go back to normal and pretending it never happened, but now everything is weird, I’m an afterthought to the person who was once closest to me, and I can’t shake the paranoid feeling that everyone is purposefully avoiding me and talking about me behind my back. I just want to start over…