Now I know the intensity of hatred everybody had for me, that your curses has fruited into my misery.

It is not my fault to have born autistic.

Call me just stupid as much you want, I’m just making s*** up. I have given up! I don’t care if I don’t have friends, I’m tired of failing so many times.

Sorry mom, all I remember was your face that spoke your hatred for having a girl child who is dumb! Now you can complain I don’t open up, well you were never emotionally connected to me like a daughter and mother usually does, only now I have found out that our relationship was abnormal and odd.

I’m with me, that’s all I need to live. I will be alone forever and I have accepted my fate and will live with it just to rub it in you people’s face.