Sorry I didn’t mean to be hurtful ..:but You can be cruel sometimes. I don’t mean to get in Your way with Josh I just missed you. I literally for the last three months cried every other day and wanted so much to hear from you. The phone thing isn’t something youyour way with Josh I just missed you. I literally for the last three months cried other day and wanted so much to hear from you. But you know the way I am I’m always afraid of being a bother basically because that’s what people have told me my whole life you know that I’m unwanted So it’s not you. I could understand why you wouldn’t want to talk to me again though I am sorry I wish I could take that back I don’t know what to say there but I really do miss hearing from you that was devastating just thinking that we would not talk again. You really are that great you’re a fun person to talk to and you’re funny and you’re very smart and you can talk about anything and your fun. I think I had a meltdown just thinking of not talking to you again. I really do love you and I realize that maybe I need to not be quite as attached but there’s no way that I would like never care but I get that maybe you don’t share that and that’s OK and you’re not blocked anywhere so I don’t know what you’re talking about. I really do miss you though…

Also please can you take the s*** off my phone