Some of this may be my own self sabotage too, I don’t know . Maybe we are both doing that …or maybe you really did use me . I don’t know . I’d like to try to understand, even if it’s too late to save this at least what happened . What led up to it that caused that blowout . Also if I have pushed you away I’m sorry and I’d like to know that too . I don’t want to keep doing this, I’m want to avoid repeating my mistakes . Does that make any sense ?

Even if you do have a new best friend or don’t need me anymore or want this . I’d really appreciate the chance to talk . Of course I miss you and want to fix things but if I messed that up I understand. It’s ok to move on if you need too . If you could possibly make time at some point that would be awesome tho . Email is fine too .