I love and miss you . I want you in my life . But even if you can’t be, I want things to be ok. If you don’t feel the same that’s ok but is it necessary to be such a hardass over allowing one phone call ? It’s been three months . I don’t want to spin anymore . I’m hurting H . I want a best friend again …someone who wants me back . How many hurdles must I jump to earn your approval ? Maybe I can’t . Maybe you deserve more and better . But I really loved you . I believe you did too . Im stuck and have tried everything . I don’t mean to cling to you . Frankly it’s humiliating.