I guess.. I’m afraid/don’t want to be sober because I view this world so pessmistically. What is the point when a person views the world as such s***.? When all you can see and hear are people’s selfishness… Even though I KNOW there exists more than that. That there are people full of love who have also been hurt… People I would love to meet but I can’t bear to look at them. It’s just so hard to find them in the first place without being drowned myself. It is not my place to heal them and yet, those are the people I feel most myself with. The people who do not wear false masks. I can’t bear to look, even at myself.. when I view the world as so polluted by hate and misery. What can I really do. Especially during this time in the world rn. What the f*** can I do.
