i still love you. i love you so much. i dont know what to do with so much love. it feels like its tearing me apart. i think about you every day. i love you. but i dont think i can see you again because itd hurt too much. of course i will see you again and itll be glorious and itll hurt so so much when i get home and youre not with me. i will be so happy to see your beautiful face again and talk with you and joke with you and share my food and stories with you. i cant wait to hear your voice. but it will hurt me so much. i love you. i love you.