I have been suicidal since i was 11. My mom found out and told me it was a normal thing to experience at my age, so I ignored everything. I was so close to reaching out for help recently. Everything has been so hard, but today she told me her old friend overdosed for attention. I’d like to think she’d understand if I told her but now i think she’d just brush it off again. I don’t know what to do. I’m scared of myself, of what I might do to myself and others. I don’t want to f****** do this anymore.