It’s always 2 am that you urge to fix your life.

I’ve been learning music theory lately. Trying to write out some melodies and stuffs. It bothers me sometimes to see ppl around me being so talented and yet so insecured. Like what do you mean? But then i remind myself that we all feel insecure af inside we don’t see what we already have. It takes time to know your own worth.

My friend is a music producer. Half-amateur? Idk. She made some very good melodies. She sings beautifully too and also dances. Wait am i retelling the tale of Billie Eilish? I hope she’ll break into the industry some day. But now she is learning economics at the same university with me. I’m so afraid if she is ever to quit music and move on to work paperdesk. Life doesn’t makes sense. At all.

I have also been into cooking lately. Baking too. But with the pandemic, ingredients r not easy to find. Butter is expENSIVE AF, WHY? I will make some cookies before i leave for school. Banana bread sounds good too. I’d like to learn how to bake.

I’d like to know what i like. What i love. What im passionate about. After 18 years it’s about damn time.