Ok no problem. Ill reblock the phone I guess so I don’t get tempted. Thats okay if we can’t talk again or communicate. I thought it was worth a shot to ask. I hope I didn’t make you feel weird asking even for closure. One last call or email not wanted. Ok. No problem. Would be really nice to get a christmas card or something tho. I will probably think of you on my birthday. I know I know i better not think about calling. I must have an awful voice or they must not like my conversations. I always thought I gave good hugs in person and was generous. but maybe not to them who knows? Im used to it.
Would give anything to just be held or get attention from someone once in a while. Human contact is always nice. feeling connected. At least they are honest they don’t feel the same. I guess i just keep posting here for the next year oh well.
PS: I’m sorry for overstaying my welcome last summer. I honestly had nothing and no one to go back to so. Just isolation . Thinking about it brought me to tears. I didn’t mean to overstay like that tho. It was just so nice seeing people. Im sorry the visit was so bad for you. I can understand why you wouldn’t want to repeat it or try again. No worries. you aren’t the first.
