Ive posted it here before but I wish someone would r*** me. I want to lose my virginity to r***, Ive been obsessed with it since I was young. I self harm so I think more than anything I crave the emotional pain. I think it feels so good, that feeling when someone holds a piece of you. And your body reacts to the pain physically, the adrenaline, having to submit to it because its not up to you. Going limp in spirit. Im so tired, I wish it would happen already so I can stop fantasizing about it or at least get off finally.