lily- honestly maybe u should contact her. see how u truly feel and tell her good or bad. why wouldn’t she just text ur number that doesn’t make sense. unless u blocked it she’s probably texted that a lot. i dont think u want her to have given up love): at least a part of u. i really feel maybe right now isn’t the greatest time for you both but that you’ll come back together. it happens a lot with couples. right now it feels best because u both r proably hurting but i am sure once it is easier things will fall into place. be careful with drinking for ur own safety.