i Think about suicide at least 10 times a day. The last 5 months have been so emotionally damaging, my relationships with my family and a lot of friends were pretty much destroyed because of me. Because I’m selfish. And I prioritized having wreck less nights and fun times over my relationships. and now I feel like everyone would be relived if I died. I can’t get the thought out of my head. I think about how I’d do it. I self harm from time to Time. For the most part, up until lately, I had been able to put on a fake smile so no one would worry about me. But in the last 3 weeks I can’t hide it anymore. Im constantly tired and emotionless. I just wanna end it. But I know that I can’t do that