[Warning: long] It’s more of a problem than a confession. And tbh I dont really think I will get any answers, but heck, I may at least try.
I am really struggling with motivation and self discipline. For my whole life I’ve been pretty smart, I usually quickly learned enough to get through life, be it school, social stuff etc. I never had to really work for anything in terms of learning.
I’ve been always telling myself I have time to become actually really good at anything, Im still young, discovering myself, stuff like that.
Now Im 18, soon I’ll be going to university or getting a job, and I still cant do anything
exceptionally well.
I know I can’t become a proffessional by doing nothing, but I have never really had to try in life for basically anything. And now I dont really even know how to do it. I dont have any self discipline or persistence to keep trying and learning.
Everytime I try to start doing anything, I just give up after a day or two.
I probably am lazy and don’t deserve any compassion, I get it. I just really wish it was easier for me. Hah, at times like that I wish my parents would push me more…