i feel suicidal.
I push people away because i’m afraid, but i desperately need someone to vent to. I don’t want attention. I’m failing school- i am about to be kicked out and i cant take pressure- -along with transitioning- everyone really not being supportive.. i’ve been brainwashed to listen to them and i’m so confused. i have no real self identity so i try and leach off of fictional characters and cosplay to find self identity… i have straight guys trying to play me- but i still have feelings… suicide can free me- but everyone tells me not to. i am very afraid. i always lie and say i’m okay- i’m a burden