I blame myself for every bad thing that’s every happened to me because I know deep down that the people who hurt me don’t feel any remorse about it, and the idea that they don’t feel guilt is somehow way worse than recognising they just did a bad thing simply because they can. So in turn I carry their guilt, my pain and that haunts me every night. Its the one thought that doesn’t go away no matter how happy I am temporarily, the thought is always there. The worst part is that I can’t talk to anyone about it not even my close friends because they’ve either contributed to my pain at least once no matter how accidental and I don’t want them to feel guilty (I know how dumb that is considering what I just said).