I hate myself I’m a distgusting human being. I was sexualy abused at age 6 by my neigbour son 17. I was a problem child(removed from several schools for bad behaviour when I was younger). I used to love my mother and father.They were everything to me. My mother stopped giving me attention when she met my stephdad, I was 10.(My parents were never together) I started to feel depressed. My mom told me she left because my dad wanted her to have an abortion when she was pregnant of me. My dad and I had an argument once and he choked my untill I lost consiousnes. I didn’t have a close bond with him but that removed any feelings I had about him. I stopped trusting people from the age of 9/10. I ruin all my relationships with friends and partners in my life. I distance myself from all my family members and my friends. I met the love of my life last year. And I ruined it by not trusting him. I went through his phone and now he left. I don’t know what I can do anymore. I don’t want to continue anymore. I don’t think it’s worth it anymore. I attempted to kill myself a few years ago but I didn’t tell anyone. I don’t know what to do anymore. I am very lost. I hate myself, I can never look at myself or take pictures. I don’t believe when someone says that they love me.