I live with my mom who married another man and she doesnt like me anymore. She likes her stepson more and always compares me to him. It hurts me a lot and gives me lot of pain. I love her a lot but she doesnt.

I try everything to make her happy and get her love but nothing works. I am 18 and I used to sleep with her when she was single and she always asks me to be shirtless at home which I like. I grew up with my grandparents as mom was a teenager when she had me. I started living with her only since last 2 years. But never does she love me and all I ever wanted was her to love me.

A strange thing happens when even once in a while she is happy with me or smiles at me. I feel a strange sensation in my navel. Same thing happens if she hurts me or is angry but then the sensation becomes very painful.

When I used to sleep with her often her hand touched my bare chest and belly. Once I had rashes on my skin around my bellybutton and she applied relieving ointment on my belly. When she touched my belly and applied ointment around my bellybutton it sent electric shocks to my spine. I wished she didn’t stop. She asked if I was feeling better but I wished she puts her finger inside my navel but I couldn’t tell her. I said I was feeling better but the itching wasnt relieved. I moved my belly trying to get her ointment covered moist finger inside my navel which she was resting over my navel. Then she somehow realized I needed it there and put her finger inside my navel. She asked is it here that I need and i moaned saying yes yes as my belly moved up and down heavily. She applied ointment and circled her finger inside my navel. I begged her to push her finger more inside but she said it will hurt me. I didn’t care about what I said then, I just begged her to push her finger inside my navel deeper and relieve my itching navel by scratching the navel base with her nail. She scratched and I enjoyed so much but I am sure she enjoyed as well. She enjoyed the control she has over me.