I thought things would be different…I thought that maybe…I had a chance at not being alone again…then…she left me…revealing she only ever dated me out of pity…now…everyone says to just…love myself…

Why should I care about myself if no one else will? I don’t care about myself…but…if someone else does…then it must mean I have a purpose…but…no one ever really loves me…they pretend they do…then…when I’m not perfect enough for them…they toss me aside like the trash I apparently am…

Every night…I pray to whoever may be listening…I pray…I beg…I plead…for just one girl…who will love me forever…who will never leave me…who will always be there for me…and who will want to start a family with me…grow old with me…

But…it doesn’t happen…because I guess I’m not worthy of true love…and the universe loves to remind me of that…by having everyone I know in loving relationships…getting engaged…getting married…having children…while leading me on to believe that I can have what they have…and then taking it away…laughing in my face and saying, “You don’t deserve love! You aren’t WORTHY of love and happiness!”