Today (well technically yesterday because it’s past 12 AM for me) I asked my crush out.
She said no.
We’re still cool.

I’m somehow more upset with myself for going for it than I am at being rejected.
I want to vomit whenever I remember my own words that I said to her.
It legitemately feels like a stain on a perfectly fine classmate friendship.
(But I’m not even sure how true that was, since it’s possible that I kept the friendship going because I wanted to ask her out, I’m not sure.)