I often think to myself if I was someone else looking at me I would be thinking “why have you been so abused?” sometimes I need to look at my life from a spectators view. and I would be thinking “what the hell is going on with this persons life?”
“why hasn’t anyone stepped in and helped properly?”

I just wish I knew what I did to deserve the s***** abuse. what did I do to deserve joyce ? what did I do to deserve people ganging up on me and not listening and not helping?

I tried to help my younger cousin when I seen her father molest her in 1986. they got the school to ring and ask the parents questions and police. I wrote about how I had seen him doing things to her and someone found it in my notes, yet no one helped me, even when her father s******* assaulted me.

no one listened to me over anything.