(This is me ranting and nagging because it’s 3 am and I’m tired)

She never answers to my messages anymore. Like, she takes a day to reply and I always reply to her a few seconds later Andre will have a conversation and I May ask her something and then she won’t reply for another 4 hours if I’m lucky. And like I’m alway trying to fit as much information into my questions as I can because Ik that after 5 sentences she won’t reply until tomorrow if I’m unlucky. The thing is she is a depressed teenage alcoholic that is addicted to her phone. And I told her before that walking home alone is really dangerous and to call me because we live close and I can come to take her home but she never does.and if we hang out and the conversation comes around and she says “ oh yeah I was thinking of calling you last time I got drunk but it was 3 am in the morning and I didn’t wanna bother you”… Like I’m a sleep deprived teenager with really bad insomnia and a lot of continuous stress!! Do you think that the adrenaline of dealing with someone that drunk won’t do me good???
I love you shut the f*** up! I’ve been crushing on you for like two years and I know at some point you liked me too. but every time I ask you if you are seeing someone, just to start the conversation and I’m hopes that you aren’t, you always have someone better or attractive waiting for you.
How can I tell you my feeling when you yourself told me that you feel uncomfortable when people confess their feelings to you but the second someone asks you out you are all over them and at the end you always get hurt.
Why can’t you stop sending me mixed feelings that when I decide too move on and stop talking to you, you send me a message like “hey do you wanna hang out?” And when I say yess because I’m a fool, every freakin second you can’t stop flirting with me and I’m sitting there, barbecue sos on my t******.. hella uncomfortable and questioning everything that has ever happened at this point.