One time when I was 13, a family friend of my grandparents had their 7 year old grandson and we went swimming together. Later, when we were in the apartment changing, he was being a typical silly 7 year old kept wanting to watch me change, because he thought it was funny. But he really wouldn’t give me privacy and at the time, I tried my best to hide my lower area as I changed back into my boxers and shorts. Then he took his swim suit off and made a point of showing me his bare a** as he did. That first part all really did happen in real life. But afterward I began to fantasize about if I had handled that situation differently. And I’m ashamed to admit it’s a fantasy I still have to this day but I don’t dare talk about it with anyone. After the changing incident, I started to really think in detail about his body. How it looked, how it curved, how soft and smooth his skin was, especially in the pool (I picked him up and threw him a couple times), and I realized that I was getting hard from it. Keep in mind, when this started I was 13. I’m not a child molester by any means. But when I was getting hard, I started to think about that day, and how he wanted so badly to see me naked, and how I could have used that as an opportunity to teach him a little about s** while simultaneously satisfying the s***** excitement I get from his body. I could have stroked and sucked his c*** and shown him what an o***** felt like, and even better, I could have let him play with my c*** and experience making me c**. I haven’t seen him for over 9 years now, and I would never do anything like that in real life, at least not until he is of legal age (and part of me does hope I get that opportunity), but this is a fantasy that has been with me since I was 13, that I’m not proud of, but that I have nonetheless. And I wanted to get it off my chest. I still fantasize about about the fictional scenario of that 7 year old boy making me c** when I was 13