G******* it…

I gotta say, there’s a few women but one in particular, I’ve said this before, but I’ll say it again, there’s a woman I know, she’s a young woman, and I’ve tried with hr once before, a few times actually, and it didn’t happen for her own reason, and I understood, and I was cool with it (I guess), I definitely wasn’t mad at her for it or really jealous she chose something else, because as always I knew what’s real even if I accept what I get at face value. which is what I did and I made myself scarce, and I know I shouldnt have been so quick to just up and vanish, because I knew it was a half assed no. It wasn’t whole hearted and it wasn’t based on your real feelings but what you perceived as right and not so right at that moment. Because you liked me, as I did you, obviously.

🙂 If you want to know the truth, I keep saying I’ll follow you on something and just hang, not bother you, I’ll just be there at arms reach if you feel like it, and I mean that, I want to, I intend to, but it’s stupid s*** holding me back

I guess I need to take care of dumb things like I want to get rid of some junk and make space in my room, I just bought a new bed, I need to junk some things, fix others, but I’m procrstinating. I kind of want it to be so if you decide to come hang out here, my brother is a room mate, and we both have rooms, plus the living room, and I have everything I need in my room, it’s comfy, but I also have a drum set (haha) and other things which could be moved to another place where I also need to get rid of things to put them there 🙂

Me holding off on things really has nothing to do with you or what I have going on, I need some loving and getting to know you is what I need so I should get on it. I know I should, I just feel like you must have quite a few people to lean on while I get some stuff together, but even so, why should you wait? I know