Been having trouble sleeping since I made plans to meet up with a guy and finally lose my virginity. If I weren’t so fat I wouldn’t be so nervous but I told him up front that I’m a big girl… he says big girls have big b**** so that’s great. He sent me a d*** pic and it’s huge so that’s also scaring me. I know what the v***** is capable of but I still find myself wondering how the f*** it’s going to fit without breaking me in half. I did tell a close friend and plan to leave the address with him in case of anything going wrong, like finding my body in a suitcase in the spring. lol He’s more excited than I am. I also told this guy that I’m a virgin, as improbable as it sounds, and that he’ll need to be patient. I thought it might scare him away or bore him that I don’t know what I’m doing. Maybe it turns him on to be in control. I’m willing to give up control this one time.. so I hope he makes it worth my while.
