I started having anxiety about 2-3 months ago and it really has fucked me up. I am 19, I am not studying anything and I don't have a job. I lived by my

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I started having anxiety about 2-3 months ago and it really has fucked me up. I am 19, I am not studying anything and I don’t have a job. I lived by my own for 3 months and that’s when I started having health anxiety, I felt like I was having health problems or that I will get one. I went to doctors, I was fine, so I realized it was anxiety. I moved in with my parents and things changed for the first 2 weeks or so. Since then my anxiety has kinda come back but it is worse this time. I have anxiety with my health but not that much since I try my best to eat healthy and workout. I have been getting terrified with aging though. I don’t know why, I never had that. I am 19 but I am afraid of growing up. I want to stay a kid. I feel like I fucked up the last 3 years of my life and I am afraid of it f****** up my future. For example I am not going to college or anything and since I am in a foreign country I have to start learning the language (which I want to) and then maybe study something here while having a part time job or working without having a degree in the future. I also don’t know what I like and don’t know what I want to do in my life. It’s f****** scary. I am afraid I am gonna grow up and won’t find what I want. I look at people from 30+ struggling and I don’t want to be that. But I don’t know what to do about it, I don’t know how to change my “destiny”, I don’t know how to find my passion. Over the last 4-5 years I really liked making music but now it just feels like I don’t have any creativity anymore. I try to come up with something but I get bored. I don’t have any passion. And I am afraid of ruining my life. I am afraid of it causing me depression. I am afraid of talking. I don’t have any friends here, all my friends are back home. I don’t know anybody here but at home everything is just more s***. All of these thoughts I have make me lose my sleep. I have had insomnia for the last week or so. I can’t get a full sleep, I wake up in the middle of the night and until the morning I sleep and wake up and all my dreams somehow connect with each other. When it is morning I just sit in bed thinking if I slept all night or not. I have lost my s** drive, I can’t even enjoy m***********. I am afraid of losing my mind. I want to have a happy life but I don’t know how to achieve it. I don’t know where to start, I don’t know what to do, I don’t know where I am going and I don’t want to be late finding out these things. I want to not care for these things and stop worrying but I don’t know how. I don’t know anything.

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I was 14 for my first television show and on the side stage before going on camera one day the producer’s son that was 8 years old came up to me dragged up a chair and started hugging me and kissing me for righteously and started massaging my d*** and continued until it ejaculated and then he put my hand on his d*** which was very hard and then moved my hand up and down and I gave him a throbbing o***** as well we continue that for the rest of our lives and moved to Italy when he was 14 and got married I’m 20 years later we would not have it any other way but the point of this message is he chose that at 8 years old and it’s not regretted a moment of it and neither have I when we spent the night together he enjoyed f****** me and became one of the smartest people in his class…… He would spend the night with me on a night before filming and then later I stayed in his suite at his home and he began f****** me at 9 years old and had the most beautiful sounds of ecstasy his mother would come in and say you boys don’t stay up too late now as his d*** was throbbing in me….. After we were together about 6 months he had two other brothers and he said could we help them have o***** so he let them f****** as they had no one to give them o*****…… They were so incredibly beautiful …. Robbie showed them how to f****** from the rear and how to lubricate the p**** and they watched until they completed o***** and then the next one took his turn while the other two stood by with hard dicks throbbing even though they had just completed f****** me they both kissed my heart throbbing d*** as they went back to their own rooms Robbie took care of my d*** after they left and drank everything and became a part of me later with his first e********** as he was f****** me I became a part of him through The years our passion and love for each other have never stopped that is why I cannot identify with the control people want to have over what boys do with their d*** and who they can give it to and what they can do with it it’s a part of who they are it helps them become who they are meant to be

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