So, I’ve recently gotten into this relationship with this amazing guy and in the past I have dealt with terrible relationships and I haven’t been in a lot of “real” ones. I’ve dealt with being an online dater, I had one serious relationship over the internet but thank god it’s in the past. But anyways! So I got into this new relationship and it’s with a boy I’ve had the biggest crush on last year in school but I didn’t try anything serious due to the fact he was in a type of relationship at the time. But this year in Highschool, My best friend had him on Snapchat and thank god she was nice enough to give it to me. We talked for a bit of time before I knew I still liked him. I told him my feelings about him and he had mutual feelings too. We started to talk A LOT till he finally asked me out. See, He does live in a different city but only around 20 minutes away. He lives at his Mom’s instead of Dad’s so that was the switch. Back on track, We are going out now and I’ve already been on a date with him ( at the movies ) and it was very nerve-racking cause I was seriously so nervous and my heart was pounding so much. I fell so deeply inlove with him. He fell inlove with me too. The date was a bit awkward for it was a movie and we didn’t talk a lot. I was so nervous but it slowly but barely got a little more easy. He ended up holding my hand after a bit in the movie and I felt terribly bad for the fact my hand was so sweaty- But after the movie was over we walked out, Talked a bit, Hugged a lot, I had the guts to kiss him and I have never been so happy in my life before.

I suffer with terrible depression at such a young age, I have and still do once and a while selfharm with the fact I have quite a bit of s*** I deal with on a daily basis. But with him I haven’t been so happy with a person my whole life. I’ve fell so hard for a person but I was so happy it was with a dude like him. He’s perfect. But here comes the problem.. We’re teenagers and known for being “h****” or “s** hungry” but BOTH of us are NOT interested in anything like that at all. We want something serious and special. Most teens tend to just use eachother and leave, but we want nothing like that. He’s a very cuddly person and so am I, So he wanted to invite me over to his place to literally cuddle and watch some netflix together, THAT’S IT. But my Mother and Her ‘Boyfriend’ literally REFUSE for me to be anywhere ALONE with him. It’s not just that, Since I’ve started dating him they’ve been treating me like this w**** who is s** hungry for d*** and wants all this s** and such but I’m really not. Hell, My boyfriend even says he’s asexual ( not attracted to s***** relations ) so it’s literally not going to happen of us doing anything. I’m a strong person as a female to take care of myself cause I have in the past too. But no, I’ve been literally treated like a w**** since I’ve started dating him. They make rude a** comments about him and THEY DON’T EVEN KNOW HIM. He makes me uncontrollably happy and I can’t even see him without permission. My Mother is a HUGE manipulator and thinks she know’s everything 24-7. I hate it so badly, She’s a huge reason I started cutting myself 4 years ago. She thinks that ALL boys are s** hungry and h**** and all are going to want to f*** me. It’s false. She knows NOTHING about MY Boyfriend. I’m tired of dealing with her acting like she’s always right and the victim 24-7. I am a 15 year old girl who literally has to worry about moving out at 16 due to the fact my Mother is a psycho and I can’t stand living with her any longer. My brother got kicked out at the age of 15 cause he couldn’t take it and I seriously want to be kicked out and she’s already threatened it but I would have NO FAMILY to go since I have such a small family and most of them don’t like me. I can’t stand this s*** anymore in all honesty, I really want to love my boyfriend and be able to love him and see him. My brother and step sister BOTH got the chances to do all of that s*** AND even had s**. I DON’T WANT S**. But that means NOTHING to them. I literally feel like a thrown around toy in the house. I hate being mistreated than all my other siblings. I f****** can’t handle it anymore it’s seriously been making me feel like running away but I know I f****** can’t. I can’t. and it’s killing me. It’s been making me mentally and physically sick. I have been starving myself, cutting, and literally crying 24-7 cause of it and I can’t control it. I’ve been trying so hard to stay strong for my friends and boyfriend but it’s so hard sometimes. My boyfriend knows how s***** my home life is and he hates it too. I have no clue what to do anymore, It’s making me insane.

PLEASE HELP.

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