I caught feelings for my best friend. He just makes me happy when I’m with him even though I’m usually a sad and depressing person. I talk to him about everything and I love it when we talk. But this is the only thing I can’t tell him. I’ve never been this close to someone because I have always distanced myself with others but he managed to get through my thick shell. I don’t want to ruin what we already have between us by confessing my feelings. Also, I’m a guy. Every time he’s with a girl, I just have to ignore it and pretend I don’t care but in reality, deep inside, it pains me and fills me with jealousy. I’m stuck here in misery, being a closeted gay, and watching the person I love just out of my reach. I keep wishing this is just a crush and I’ll get over him soon and we’ll be normal best friends again but every time I thought I am over this, these feelings for him comes rushing back every time I am with him. I want to confess to him so bad but he is straight and it’ll ruin our friendship.
