my mother has been verbally abusing me since a young age. i’m on college winter break for a month so i’m back at home. she told me she hates me and she wants me to move out tonight but school is closed so i have no where to live. it’s gotten to the point where i want to either commit suicide or kill her . i don’t know if i can survive 4 weeks at home with her. i will love to stab her in her sleep but i don’t want to go to jail for murder .