My headaches literally have gotten to the point of being so painful cuz all I can think about is the fact that I have abandoned my son but cannot find out where my baby mama and him is. I have tried every single way to find them but since I don’t remember her number or where she lives, I really don’t think I would ever find her.

I regret ever running away when she told me she was pregnant. I should have stayed with her the minute that she texted me that. All I want now is for somebody to kind of “dox” me and dig up my info so I could find her again. Cuz I would do anything to be with my son. I love him more than anything in the world, and I haven’t even met him.

Wherever she is, I hope that someday she actually does reach out to find me because my worst fear is that he ends up growing up without his dad (me) and ends up on the wrong side of the law.