I don’t even like the idea of a dude holding a camera filming the p***. That’s how attracted to dudes I am. There is not one guy in any of my p***, and if I’m watching some chick, and the camera is moving, like someone is controlling the camera, I’m out. I want to know she set up the camera herself and is doing her thing. F*** your boyfriend, why the f*** is he there? I’m going to go find a v*****. Do you think I’m down for a t******** with a f****** dude in the room? That’s sickening.

As for her, see that’s the thing, s** is not part of it either. I am not touching her, she is not touching me, for a long, long time IF we got together. Until I am damn good and sure she has nothing floating around in the background, and yeah, I expect that. She knows that. I know that. It’s a s***** place to be she would need to proving a lot. I would know if it’s real. It’s not on me, no matter what she says, I’m not in the wrong, it’s on her. I’m realistic though. Sounds rough, and it is, but it’s not my fault it’s that way. That’s what happens when you destroy things intentionally that you maybe shouldn’t. Burn bridges. It’s really s*****, it’s pretty f****** damaged. It’s like trying to put 2 freight trains back together after a collision. Can she hack what I expect? Probably not. Actually for sure not but it is what it is, as they say. I have no expectations. It’s so f****** damaged and you add to that all kinds of other s***, she’s definitely picked up some s*** that absolutely can not be dropped and left behind. I also know realisticcally, the way most people think. I am not the best choice she could make if you look at it. I am not very confident about her and I, she could be p****** guys off left and right talking about what we had, people hate me, and I seem to be seen as competition or something like that. I can’t be in a relationship where it’s like that there’s 30 guys wanting it. These guys need to remember she hasn’t spoken a word to me in 15 years. I have gotten nothing in 15 years. She has not even tried. Just keep that in mind, you are getting more than I have or ever did.