I have had an underlying sadness for many years starting 8 years ago I don’t know what causes it but I am always sad and stressed and anxious I have been on very many medications and weed is really the only thing that helps but all my friends like to steal my weed. my parents waste money on my mental and physical health and it is way too much for me to handle I would be better off dead and my friends wouldn’t constantly have to put up with me and my parents wouldn’t have to pay for my medical expenses and I would finally achieve happiness and not be in physical pain. I really think I should just end it I really can’t keep living this way.