I lost my virginity twice.

I lost my virginity at a pretty young age, we were both just pushing 13 I believe. She had already had s** with her pervious boyfriend and we had done most things s***** besides actual i**********. Latish in our relationship, we impulsively decided to have (unprotected) s**, and were both excited and eager to do it. The actual s** lasted only about a minute or two after I finally figured out what I was doing, but immediately after, I began having mixed feelings about it (we were so damn young), but being a young teenage boy, I was excited to have lost my virginity as well. We went on to have s** on one other occasion shortly after the first time, but about two weeks after that, we broke up. We agreed never to tell anyone about it, but she broke that promise, forcing me to lie to anyone who confronted me about it, including my best friend who asked long after we had broken up. I had many relationships after this one, who I never told and I eventually had my first serious relationship later on in high school which lasted about two and a half years and I never told her either. To this day, not a single one of my friends knows the truth about my actual first experience, not even the girl who took my “recycled” virginity. This has been something that has brought a serious amount of guilt upon me, and I don’t plan on telling a soul until I move out of my home town. I feel horrible for deceiving everyone I know, but it’s too late to go back on it now.

If anyone has a similar story or coping advice, by all means share! I will not, however, share this information with anybody unless it’s absolutely anonymous, so that suggestion is out.