Most desired goal/need? As much as I love putting a d**** or v******* in my a** and losing myself in that incredible pleasure…it sates me far better and longer than a conventional o***** with my c***…even if only once, I want to know experience being fucked by a real c***. To have no control over the timing or depth of thrusting. To feel hot hard flesh sinking into my body. To have those soul changing moments….feeling myself being entered with the panic, in my head screaming oh my god there is a c*** entering my a**….to lose my breath after the head has seated itself and it slides fully into me…to be squirming helplessly and moaning when he starts thrusting and I surrender to the knowledge that I have no control over any of it…those powerless breathless moments of “oh my god i an getting fucked by a man”. And as much as anything I want it natural, without a condom. I want to feel it as God intended, warm bare flesh to warm bare flesh. And just as desperately, if he cums big and hard enough, I want to be able to feel it happening inside me. Even if I cannot feel him c****** inside me, I want to know in my mind “a man/his c*** are c****** in me”. Despite knowing that it will change me permanently, there will be no going back.