I am a bad person.. I dont know why I did what I did.. I missed being held by someone.. I missed someone holding me to tell me they adore me.. I missed some support in my life and although I love someone who lived far from me.. (I love him beyond words can explain but he is not here to tell me everything will be alright and i crave that.. I craved expression of love and support and he never expressed that)
Although I love him so much, I let my ex boyfriend to take me into his arms and we held each other in bed,.. I missed him somewhat.. I was craving what he wanted to give me and that was a terrible, very terrible combination.. I hate to say this but i dont know, I feel I have cheated on you my love.. But i promise anything similar won’t ever happen again.. I am trying to set things right.. Trying to do what I can but that does not make me right.. That does not mean i am not guilty.. I hate myself for doing this to you but I didn’t know what to do.. It felt good.. It felt so comforting and I felt so loved.. Something you haven’t made me feel in a long time.. Still it doesn’t make me right and I hate myself more than anything else right now.. I am sorry.. And I love you sweetheart.. I love you.. And only you.. Please