I was forced to tell my mom my gretest secret and childhood trama. I don’t even feel comfortable “saying” it. She said if I didn’t she’d get my brother to force it out of me. I was scared -don’t worry he wasn’t going to hurt me. But since I told her I want to run away, I want to just float in the abyss. I love life but I don’t love mine. I don’t plan on talking to her or going out. I wish life had a restart button.