i just. i dont know. i feel so replacable. i feel like noone’d care too much if i just disappeared and or died. i never deserved my great friends, family, and altogether great life. im just an ungrateful idiot who misses every opportunity. thats all there is to me i guess. everything is my fault, or even if it isnt i manage to make it mine because i dont think things through. i deserve whats coming. i need it, and soon.